i lost someone..

I lost someone but he was really never mine to lose.. Did you..? To that point I always wonder if there is really LIFE after DEATH, sounds crazy but being in love i wanna make things possible for if i may put actions of what i wanted, it only complicates things where it's not meant to be, because if i will force that love it's probably gone out SHIT!

It hurts me to the point i can't stand alone but have to try coz it's not really the end of the world.. The funny thing there is there's a moment which i become so close to him and sometimes we called ourselves like BESTFRIENDS thought that will never end, but later on we become STRANGERS. YES! STRANGERS. Strangers in our eyes, feelings and in every way.. Well, it sucks! that HURTS! coz when i actually found out what was my HAPPINESS was exactly i found the next thing to it was PAIN.. He was the person who gives BIG impact into my LIFE, coz somehow its worth the pain.. I never think of what he does wrong to me but I chose to live the happy memories we've shared while we have each other, and it is always worth KEEPING.. TRUE LOVE is really invincible..It's not that easy and probably not perfect, you may not see it or feel it but when you look back it's always there..

I love you JL and always will be..

-roj-